Hello 4 am, long time no see.

Well...kind of...I saw 4 am on Friday, but I was waking up to go to work...not staying up till 4 am.
I guess now that I'm starting to feel a tiny bit better from my sickness I don't have the desire to sleep for 12 to 13 hours at a time. Plus I didn't take NyQuil or Benedryl. And I had like 5 cans of Coke today after not having it for days and days.
ANYWAYS!
I decided on a whim at around maybe 2 am to start this blog. My lovely husband has started his own blog as a form of...releasing creativity? creative therapy? just to do it? However you want to put it, it's a good idea.

So I decided to try it myself. I used to write in many physical diaries when I was a kid and then as I got older I was a junkie for all things internet journaling. I can't even remember all the websites I had accounts on. Then I just stopped, mostly because all I did was whine since I was an angry emo teenager and I realized the stuff I was writing wasn't helping. Plus I was in college and became busy with failing classes and working. But anyways, a lot has changed since that time. "A lot" being an understatement. And now I am having finish line syndrome. It's a term I made up. I get it every semester, or at the end of every project. I see the finish line, I'm almost there and it's like "that's close enough" and all my motivation, all my drive and desire just disappears into thin air like I never even had it. The burn out is complete. And this is bad.
I have this stupid book review I need to have done and submitted on Monday on top of modules after modules to do in the next week. And then I have work and a dirty house that require my attention.
And I know this is it, the final stretch, after this I'm done til January, so I should just get it all done and over with but it's like I'm a car who's ran out of gas a block from the gas station.

SO! The point of my rambling and this whole deal....

I need to feel useful. All but one of my classes are completely pointless as I changed my major (again) after I started the classes. So I'm doing all this work for nothing. On top of not liking all but one of my classes. And on top of having no time to do anything like write something that I want to write, or paint or any of that. So for the time being, and probably definitely in the Spring semester, I have to create something or I will explode or curl up in the fetal position. Even if it's as simple as a blog post, or editing a photo or something.

So there. That's why I wasted spent time creating this blog, editing the photo for the top of it, and writing this post. Now...maybe, just maybe, I can get some homework done. Oh how I loath school right now, but it must be done.

(By the way I had/have a Tumblr but I think I agree with my husband that Blogger is much easier to personalize, plus I used to have a wedding blog on it back in the day so I'm comfortable with it.)